i hope you see this at some point soon.
some bitch in my class is listening to JAI HO.
and i just thought of you! 
<3!

it's thursday which is crazy whack cus it for sure feels like tuesday or something. and even though i've only been in diploma for two days it feels like years which in turn feels like hell- not that actually being there is so bad- it just takes up so much time and it's so tedious. i'm beginning to think that i'll never get all that work done.

i really do want to see courtnie saturday. i've got to babysit and stuff tomorrow, but for sure i can get dropped off at home or something saturday morning and see her. ya dig?

basically, diploma plus isn't so bad. but this is just day one.
my favorite part of today: "i start to get the munchies just sitting near you."
oh boy, alex johnson never fails to be fucking hysterical.
whether it's his humor, or on his account.
plus i saw courtnie, and she's the love of my life for sure.
sleepoversaturday<3.

i wish cassie got to switch into my foods class. =(

so for some reason i got intensely sick earlier and it like passed over, but i don't know what it was. i was in mrs. waranis's and i was fine, and then next thing i knew i wasn't fine anymore. i threw up and it sucked. and i sat on the bathroom floor and like cried because i didn't want to move. kldgjakl;sdgj

but it's like gone. and then i got my period.
so it musta been that.

i don't even want to talk to you. how unnecessary is it to tell him every god damn little thing? i don't approve. and i'm glad your happy. i just hope it's worth losing one of your best friends. 

i'm absolutely done.
forget it.

i'm feeling really excellent today. about life, and about a lot of things. this year is finally starting to feel.. right? i hung out with erika on friday and it was pretty excellent. and i'm just glad that me and her are friends. even if other people aren't. i think i just made really cute plans for this weekend. hopefully. if not i'll probably just chill here, catch up on work and sleep. : )

today i get to meet whore cus roxy's gonna bring here to the cookout. i'm glad. i have mad crockage and roxy has newports so this should be a good time. plus i've got a bunch of rockstar & a castuck too. :) <3


i love my family more than life itself.




i think courtnie's supposed to come too, excellent.

roxy can't come over tomorrow.
i wish it wasn't even my birthday.
happy sweet fucking sixteen to me.

so i'm definitely wicked souped right now because my parents went grocery shopping & then came home with a sweet pair of loafer type shoes for me. they're cute, or i think so. they're brown & have blue designs on the outer edge & the tops and linings are frayed.  i'll probably end up wearing these to school like everyday. and i'm going to get a pink and a green pair of the orange boots i've got. which should be freakin wonderful since mine are kinda all pooped out since i wear them a ton.

so basically i just found out that my uncle steve got into a motorcycle accident. he just got his bike yesterday and then my aunt calls my dad telling him that uncle steve was on his way to the hospital & a tow truck picked up the remnants of his bike. thats a bummer. i hopes he's all right though, i'm sure aunt carolyn will call back later with TONS more to say about it.


mom starts at her new job on monday, today she got some new clothes to wear to it and i think that they're mighty cute. i told her cassie will probably steal her shoes & one of the blouses she got. :)

umm. hanging with court & tom was pretty sweet. i think we're going to hang out again next week. asap. like monday. cus slayer/ manson saturday.


i went to the beach today. it was sweet. i hung out with my cousin dan's girlfriend ashley mostly. she's pretty cool though. & castuck was there. so it was fun. especially when i told an 11 year old that i wanted to kick her in the face. but not so fun when i cut my foot open on the diving plat form. i need to to stop getting wounded.
& apparently i'm "stupid face" & "brutus".


today is diana's birthday but she's on a killer cruise so i didn't talk to her.

i want to see if roxanne can sleep over tomorrow. i miss her a ton. i don't see her as much as i used tooooooooo! =(


then i think sunday i'm going to hang out with koty or something. i don't know.
wednesday's j's party. i think that it's wednesday anyway.
and friday is kellie's birthday party.

i need rides probably. cus mom starts work monday. :D

sadfjkladsflkads

vacation in a little more than a week, i can't wait.
tomorrow my dads gonna get a bunch of the fun stuff together for the water and stuff.
today they put in an AC, so now we have one at both ends of the house and it keeps it real cool in here. wicked tenda.
friday night lights is a wicked good movie.


kellie bellie! idk if you read this, but i'm ungrounded so call me when you're free! <3

it's been pretty tenda so far. fire-age. crockage. & tenda 3.
i can't wait til vacation. because even though everythings been good. everything's still stupid.
i'm in a wicked bad mood today and i don't know why. i woke up at 5:30 this morning and filled a trash bin half full of puke. it was nasty. and then i came in and brushed my teeth and washed up and then went back out to the garage where i could hardly fall back asleep until 8:00.

i really wanted to go to the beach today, but whatever.  we didn't end up going.

i kinda just want to go to sleep.
tomorrows my dads birthday and i think i'll end up working in the yard all day to help him out because i'm broke and therefore have zero cash to buy him a present. i wish i could get him some thing cool.

roxtuck= going to school with us tomorrow.
tendaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

i think he didn't even try.
i think maybe if he wasn't talking to kat for the majority of the time he was "with" me (if you could even call it that) then maybe things would have been different.
i think she's a million miles away and he should try having a life here. because in case he hasn't noticed, he does live in Rhode Island.
i think that in order to get over somebody you need to take time to yourself.
i think that there's a million things he should have never said. and a million more that he should continue to not say.
i think i've liked him since i was seven, give or take.
i think none of this is fair.
i think that as much as i try not to, i think about him way more than i should.
i think i'd be lost without cassie and roxy keeping me on track.
i think i'd be crying all the time if cassie didn't listen to me rant


i think that some people need to wake up, grow up, and see what's right in fucking front of them.

ROXTUCK NIGHT. :)
i'm fucking souped as hell. mad crockage and whatnot. it sucks that casstuck wont be around though. but she has to help aunt poopface and then she'll be here with us on saturday. i'll cry myself to sleep if roxtuck doesn't come over tonight. because then my only other option, unless i want to chill by myself on a friday night is tyler. and i think at this point i'd rather chill by myself on a friday night. wicked bummer.

just like.. talking to tyler is wicked weird now

I'd like to be under the sea
In an octopus' garden in the shade
He'd let us in, knows where we've been
In his octopus' garden in the shade

so basically, prom was a major success.
i had a blast.












but i still cannot freaking wait until next weekend when roxy mcpooper is here again!

hi you guys! just so you know! i have sex in the circumsized penis with my wigger boyfriend and then brag about his weiner.